雙語暢銷書《我是馬拉拉》第13章:古爾瑪凱的日記(13)
When I got home, I cried and cried.
I didn't want to stop learning.
我不想停止學習。I was only eleven years old but I felt as though I had lost everything.
我才11歲，但我覺得自己已經失去了一切。
I had told everyone in my class that the Taliban wouldn't go through with it.
以前，我告訴班裏的同學們，塔利班不會真正下手的。'They're just like our politicians – they talk the talk but they won't do anything,' I'd said.
“他們和我們的政客一樣——只會講啊講，就是不會做。”我對班上的每一位同學說。But then they went ahead and closed our school and I felt embarrassed.
但塔利班沒有停留在語言上，他們走得更遠——他們關閉了我們的學校。這讓我感到很羞愧。I couldn't control myself. I was crying, my mother was crying but my father insisted, 'You will go to school.'
我沒有辦法控制自己。我在哭，母親也在哭，父親卻堅定地說：“你會繼續上學的。”For him the closing of the schools also meant the loss of business.
對父親來說，學校的關閉意味着事業會遭受損失。The boys' school would reopen after the winter holidays but the loss of the girls' school represented a big cut in our income.
寒假結束後，男子學校將繼續運營，而女子學校的關閉意味着收入的銳減。More than half the school fees were overdue and my father spent the last day chasing money to pay the rent, the utility bills and the teachers' salaries.
學校該支付的費用超過半數已經到期。在這最後的時間裏，父親四處要賬、籌錢，以支付房租、水電費賬單及老師們的薪水。That night the air was full of artillery fire and I woke up three times.
那天晚上，空氣中充滿火藥的味道，我一夜沒睡好，醒了三次。The next morning everything had changed.
第二天早上，一切都改變了。I began to think that maybe I should go to Peshawar or abroad or maybe I could ask our teachers to form a secret school in our home, as some Afghans had done during Taliban rule.
我開始思考，也許我應該去白沙瓦或國外繼續學業，或者也許我可以請老師們在我們家裏開一間祕密學校，就像在塔利班統治下的阿富汗人所做的一樣。
