雙語暢銷書《我是馬拉拉》第23章:伯明翰 頭部中槍的女孩(5)
I always think about solutions to problems so I thought maybe I could go down to the reception of the hospital and ask for a phone to call my mother and father.
But my brain was telling me, You don't have the money to pay for the call nor do you know the country code.
但我的大腦告訴我：你沒有錢付電話費，你也不知道這個國家的國際代碼是多少。Then I thought, I need to go out and start working to earn money so I can buy a phone and call my father so we can all be together again.
然後我想：我需要到外面去，開始工作賺錢，這樣我才能買個電話，打給我父親，然後我們便能再團聚在一起了。
Everything was so mixed up in my mind.
我腦海裏的所有東西都攪成了一團。I thought the teddy bear Dr Fiona had given me was green and had been swapped with a white one.
我以爲菲奧娜醫生給我的泰迪熊本來是綠色的，有人偷偷把它換成了白色的。'Where's the green teddy?'
“綠色的泰迪熊跑哪去了？”I kept asking, even though I was told over and over there was no green teddy.
縱使他們不厭其煩地一次次告訴我綠色的泰迪熊不存在，我還是會用同樣的問題詢問他們。The green was probably the glow of the walls in the intensive care unit but I'm still convinced there was a green teddy.
那綠色可能是來自加護病房的牆壁所發出的微光，但我仍深信我曾擁有一隻綠色的泰迪熊。I kept forgetting English words.
我不斷地忘記英文單詞。One note to the nurses was 'a wire to clean my teeth'.
我寫給護士的紙條裏，有一張上面寫着：“一條能讓我清潔牙齒的鐵絲。”It felt like something was stuck between them and I meant floss.
聽起來像是有東西卡在我的齒縫中，而我實際上是需要一條牙線。Actually my tongue was numb and my teeth were fine.
事實上，我的舌頭是麻痹的，牙齒完全沒事。The only thing that calmed me was when Rehanna came.
蕾哈娜的造訪是我唯一的撫慰。She said healing prayers and I started moving my lips to some of them and mouthing 'Amin' (our word for 'amen') at the end.
她吟誦治療用的禱文，我的嘴脣也開始能隨之開合，並在結束時說出無聲的“阿敏”（Amin，穆斯林的“阿門”。）。The television was kept off, except once when they let me watch Masterchef which I used to watch in Mingora and loved but everything was blurred.
電視機總是關着的。只有一次，他們讓我看《廚神當道》，我以前在明戈拉時會定時觀看，也爲之着迷，但我眼中所看到的一切仍舊很模糊。It was only later I learned that people were not allowed to bring in newspapers or tell me anything as the doctors were worried it could traumatise me.
一段時間以後，我才知道是醫生不準任何人帶報紙進來給我，或告訴我任何事情，他們擔心我會因此而精神受創。
